Written by Bella Sage
When I think about how to describe my personal walk with God, a lot of words come to mind. Among them are descriptions such as beautiful, endless, intimate, amazing, as well as words such as challenging, frustrating, and even terrifying sometimes. This may seem surprising to some people, but the word “perfect” does not describe my relationship with Jesus. Don’t get me wrong, of course I want my relationship with God to be perfect, who doesn’t? However, God didn’t create us to be perfect. He created us to be overcomers.
One of the things I love so much about my relationship with God is that He expects us to fail sometimes. It’s okay not to get it right the first time! Our walk with Him isn’t supposed to be easy; if it was easy then we would never learn how to fully dwell in His presence with blind faith and complete surrender. We learn to come to the Lord when we are struggling, so it is easier to come to Him when everything is going well in our lives, too. Because God knows us deeply and intimately, He created us to be overcomers.
My favorite quote I heard several years ago is “How can we know true joy if we have never experienced true pain?” The same goes for our walk with God. James 1:2-3 says, “Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance.” God’s light shines brighter in the darkness; and He uses us as vessels to display His beautiful works to the rest of the world.
Because of this knowledge, I boast in the fact that I am not perfect, and that my walk with God is not perfect. I embrace my struggles because I know that they are present in my life only to help me grow closer with Jesus. Romans 8:18 states that “What we suffer now is nothing compared to the glory He will reveal to us later.” I love this, because I can now rest in the assurance that my struggles have a purpose.
Being a college student, I have had my fair share of struggles. I vividly remember one night several years ago when I was worshipping the Lord, and He was breaking down my chains of insecurity and doubt. I was on my knees when He showed me a vision that I will never forget. It was a flashback of every obstacle I have faced regarding my insecurities, my relationships, and the pain and anger involved with the death of my father. At first, I was confused as to why He was showing me all these painful things, as if forcing me to live through it all over again. After several moments of excruciating pain, I was filled with a silent, overwhelming peace. I heard God’s voice say to me, “Do you see what I have done? You have gone through so much pain, but I have not left your side every step of the way. Each of these things you have overcome, and now you are closer to Me than ever before.” I cannot explain to you how moving this moment was in my relationship with God, but it has helped me to have a completely different outlook on life. I can strongly tell you that I would not be who I am today if it weren’t from my struggles and God helping me overcome them.
I promise you, no matter what you are going through, you will overcome. Your pain has a purpose. YOU have a purpose, and you are never alone.
Meet the Author
Bella is a kind-hearted and passionate 19-year-old college student living in small-town Durango, Colorado. She leads a busy life of traveling, inspiring, and pursuing her dreams. As an advocate of love, Bella has been writing her own faith/lifestyle/adventure blog for the past two years at http://endlesslyloved.com/ . She writes in hopes to remind everyone of the reckless, endless love that the Lord has for each of His children. She is also a full-time singer for the worship team at her church, and she hopes that her blog, her testimony, and her walk with God will inspire you to live vicariously through His grace and love.